On writing “what you know”

I was born and raised in the Hudson Valley region of New York State, near New York City. I’ve understood the concept of hills and valleys and mountains all of my life, from my childhood excursions to the Catskills. In high school I was an earth science nerd and I’d read up on factoids about geography, mountains, and weather patterns (and let’s not talk about astronomy, because that’s another can of obsessive worms) because I thought it was fascinating. So in college, when several scenes in my draft needed to be set in a range of fictional mountains I’d created, I was fairly certain I knew what I was doing. I could write about things set in mountains, sure. I knew about mountains — a lot more than I knew about the physics of my magic, anyway. I wrote the scenes and I moved on.

That summer, I traveled to Munich, Germany to study German and I saw the Alps for the first time. I realized I knew nothing about the type of mountains I was trying to visualize because I’d had no frame of reference. I’d never seen mountains like these before. In Munich, you can see the Alps from within city limits — okay I couldn’t see them until I was standing on top of the Olympiaturm, the sight-seeing tower built in the Olympiapark, the park built for the 1984 Olympic Games — but the Alps are visible. From Munich. Later that month I took the train to Neuschwanstein Castle, in Füssen, Germany, in the Alps — well. I realized I’d had no frame of reference at all for what was a “mountain” and what was a “castle.”

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(Though admittedly, Neuschwanstein is no where near the norm of a European castle. King Ludwig II bankrupted Bavaria to build it and only lived in it for 172 days. For reference, this castle was finished in 1884, the year after the Brooklyn Bridge was completed!)

The Alps themselves were even more stunning when I returned to Europe — dragging my then-fiancé (now husband) with me — the following spring, when there was still snow visible on the peaks.

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The same year I dragged my then-fiancé to Europe, he dragged me to Utah to ski with him, and we’ve been going every spring since. We go to a mountain just outside the city limits of Salt Lake City, UT, less than an hour from SLC International Airport. Salt Lake City stands at an average of 4,300 ft above sea level (so less than mile-high Denver, CO), but on the drive up the canyon road to the mountain, the elevation increases from 4,500 to 8,000 feet at the lodge base. (In the car, driving up the winding road, gravity pulls you back into your seat because of the incline of the road.) The mountain itself has a peak of 11,000 ft. The peak is covered with some kind of snow sometimes as late as June. And the snow! I could write a whole entry about the multitude of different kinds of snow I’ve experienced there over the years. (“Blizzard” is a term we in New York City use for something the folks at this mountain would laugh at.)

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(See more photos here.)

What I wrote of mountains before I’d seen them, climbed them, skiied them was not factually incorrect. I’d gotten the basics correct; I had done my research. But when I rewrote the scenes, I found I wrote them with more confidence and authority. I was able to incorporate small details from my own experience, to give my characters the sense of unreality I’d felt being in such majestic surroundings. I think  my writing benefited.

Thoreau said,

How vain it is to sit down to write when you have not stood up to live.

and every time I read that quote I think of the concept of “writing what you know” — one of the principles taught to writing students early on, one of those things we learn… then learn how to break. I know that as a writer of fantasy I will never have the opportunity to experience all that I’ll write about, either from the standpoint of a practical limitation or that of impossibility. Even more basically, I’ll never know what it is like to have grown up with a single parent. I may never know what it feels like to be a grandmother. I’ll never jump in lava (hopefully my characters won’t ever, either), I’ll never run someone through with my sword (I don’t even own a sword, unless you count my plastic lightsaber), and I’ll never fly through the eye of a hurricane (I wonder if Superman ever has?).

Instead, I’m doing my best to experience life, to live it to its fullest, so that when I sit down to write I can bring a wealth of emotions and memories to the computer with me, from which I can draw to create realistic, evocative fiction.

EDIT: I should probably edit to make clear that I’m not saying one should write only what one knows — or make up an entire novel’s contents without infusing it with one’s real experiences and emotions. There’s a happy medium. I’ve always hated the “write what you know” saying, because as someone who writes fantasy that always annoyed me. But it’s a solid point I shouldn’t entirely disregard. I think I’ve finally come around to understanding that using what I know to make my entirely imagined stuff feel more real is one way I can help my writing shine.

How have you used your life experiences in fiction? How have you compensated for a moment for which you had no personal frame of reference? Tell me what you think about “writing what you know”!

Banned Books Week

It’s Banned Books Week. Looking back at my childhood and formative years, I’ve read dozens of books that have been challenged or banned somewhere across the country. This… surprises me. That some kids right now aren’t given the opportunity by their parents, teachers, or librarians to read some of the books had a tremendous impact on me? That seriously bothers me.

I don’t remember a time when my parents said I couldn’t read any book I wanted to read. There were some frowns and “shouldn’t”s thrown around (regarding Stephen King, Peter Benchley, and Michael Crichton, when I was in elementary school), but never a “no.” They let me decide for myself.

For fourth grade reading class, we read Lois Lowry’s The Giver*. I didn’t understand it then; in fact, I distinctly remember having a nightmare about it – Imagine being told what your future career will be at a young age, I thought, the horror! — but then I read it again as a teenager and… wow. I was left chilled. In fifth grade, we read Madeleine L’Engle’s A Wrinkle in Time* and it was the first book I’d ever read for school where I connected with the protagonist. Meg Murry was ME, albiet 12. I was 10 with plain brown hair and glasses and although I was good in school and never felt as rejected by my teachers as Meg did, seeing her made me feel so much better about my own life. Reading that book gave me self-confidence. (It also made me desperately long for brothers.) When we read Julie of the Wolves*, I distinctly remember that never before had a book evoked such strong emotions from me. (I also remember being annoyed that Julie didn’t turn into a wolf. I similarly read The Witch of Blackbird Pond* thinking it was about magic.) Out of school I was happily devouring Goosebumps* and Roald Dahl*.

Even as an older kid, the Scary Stories series of books by Alvin Schwartz (with those amazing illustrations!) was still one of my favorites. Before I even knew that fantasy was a genre, I loved the historical/mystery/suspense feel to those stories, loved the exploration of the impossible and implausible they presented. Imagine my surprise, then, when I saw that that series was listed at #1 on the most-banned/challenged books of 1990-1999 list, as well as #7 on the 2000-2009 list.) In A Dark, Dark Room is still one of my favorite picture books/easy readers of my childhood.

I read To Kill a Mockingbird* for the first time when I was 10, the summer after fifth grade. I remember thinking, “I didn’t think an old book could actually be so interesting.” Reading it made me mad. I’d grown up in a school district that took celebrating Martin Luther King, Jr. Day very seriously, but I had never gotten so upset about racism and bigotry until I’d read this book and felt it for myself.

I read The Catcher in the Rye* the summer before tenth grade, when I was 14. I hated The Catcher in the Rye. But I read it once for myself, and once again in class in tenth grade (still hated it), but I read it. I can now say that I’ve read it and I hate it for a variety of concrete reasons. I read The Great Gatsby* the summer before I was in eleventh grade, when I was 15. The Great Gatsby, unlike with Catcher — that book changed the way I thought about language in fiction. F. Scott Fitzgerald’s prose — I’d never read anything like that before. I’d been reading Star Wars novels and contemporary YA and anything fantasy in the children’s section of the public library. I’d never read… well. A book about “a great, sad rich guy and his life” and thought I’d ever connect with the characters, or find it interesting enough to read three times. I thought the only books I would love would have to involve space or dragons or swords or magic. For all of my much-maligned school district’s faults, we read some serious literature. Before Gatsby, we’d read Richard Wright’s Black Boy*, then Native Son* for another class; we read Song of Solomon* (surprising) by Toni Morrison and Of Mice and Men* (amazing) by John Steinbeck. There was The Jungle* (long), The Age of Innocence* (annoying); I read The Fountainhead* and was so affected by its message of individualism I obsessively isolated myself for a while. Outside of class, I kept reading science fiction and fantasy. I read YA fantasy, naturally, (like the first several Harry Potter* books) but also Dune, The Lord of the Rings* and The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy*. Somewhere in there I discovered and gave up many nights of sleep for the His Dark Materials* trilogy by Philip Pullman (just after The Amber Spyglass came out, thank goodness, or I would have imploded from the wait).

I had no idea until I was seventeen or eighteen that many of those books I’d read for school or for myself, that I’d loved, hated, endured, and that profoundly affected me had, at one point, been either challenged or banned in other places around this country.

When the anti-Harry Potter fervor was first hitting libraries, I was a page in the children’s section of my local library, shelving books, and overhearing parents come to the librarians asking for a book “like Harry Potter, so my kid will read it, but with none of the silly witchcraft. Do you have stuff like that?” They’d recommend titles by authors like Louis Sachar or Jerry Spinelli for the boys and Katherine Paterson and E. L. Konigsburg for the girls, but insist to the parents, “You ought to read Harry Potter yourself. I actually enjoyed the books, a lot. They’re fun, and the witchcraft stuff is completely overblown by the media.” Some of these parents frowned thoughtfully. Win? Possibly. But I loved the librarians for not giving in to the fervor.

In conclusion to this ramble of a post, I adore books. I believe everyone should read books of all kinds and have the freedom of choice to be able to decide for themselves what they ought to read. And as people across the internet have proved in the past few weeks, there’s a power in speaking loudly against book banning. I love the internet community of writers and readers. Let’s keep talking and spreading the word and ensure every reader has a chance to read the books that could change their lives.

(* appear next to titles of recent books and older classics that have been banned or challenged at some point in the last 20 years – according to the ALA.)

Rewriting a novel is like solving a puzzle. But with WORDS.

I’ve come to the above realization today because I’ve spent the better part of late August and early September fully immersed in the world of my work-in-progress and it hasn’t felt like writing as much as puzzle-solving. Because this one isn’t a new project, it’s an old one (originally kamikaze’d years ago) and I know it well and dearly. Writing it hasn’t been the kamikaze explosion of text on a page my first drafts always are. It’s been a careful process of reassembling all of the pieces of a puzzle I know well.

When I first approached this rewrite (which is of a young adult fantasy, naturally), it felt like I was pouring the pieces of a huge, complicated puzzle onto a clean tabletop. I know this story so well I know (or can vaguely see) each and every one of its many little parts, its different plot points and characters with their arcs, the secondary characters who surprise me, the details of setting and scene and world-building I know so well. But how to fit them together again to tell a story better than the way I’ve told it before, in an earlier iteration? That’s the question that constantly drives me when I’m writing. The what in a novel can feel similar — tropic characters or themes, familiar settings or devices — but the how, that’s what always fascinates me about reading a novel as well as writing one. The execution, if you will. I didn’t approach this rewrite daunted by the unknown, not really, because I had all the pieces on the table before me. But I was fitting them together in a fresh way, and that excited me — continues to excite me.

I started with the frame of the puzzle, the opening and the world. In a rewrite, I pay careful attention to the way I lay out the words — and I obsess over this in subsequent edits. Because starting from the front, every word cumulatively builds the world as the reader knows it and is essential in setting up the frame of the world itself as it is with setting up the story, plot, and characters. As Ursula K. LeGuin explains in her (amazing!) essay, “From Elfland to Poughkeepsie”:

…In fantasy there is nothing but the writer’s vision of the world. There is no borrowed reality of history, or current events, or just plain folks at home in Peyton Place. There is no comfortable matrix of the commonplace to substitute for the imagination, to provide ready-made emotional response, and to disguise flaws and failures of creation. There is only a construct in a void, with every joint and seam and nail exposed. To create what Tolkien calls “a secondary universe” is to make a new world. A world where no voice has ever spoken before; where the act of speech is the act of creation. The only voice that speaks there is the creator’s voice. And every word counts.

This is an awful responsibility to undertake, when all the poor writer wants to do is play dragons, to entertain himself and others for a while.

(I love her.)

After I pushed through the first chapter or two, in setting up this world (though admittedly in this WiP, my opening still needs work), I continued on assembling the pieces. This is hard, this time around, because I’ve finally understood what I needed to fix to make this story stronger: it’s a dual-protagonist story, not a singular one, and the inclusion of the other main character’s point of view was so essential in making these pieces snap into place at long last. (It’s in third person, and considering the last project I was editing to within an inch of its life was first person, it’s definitely a switch.) Once I rewrote the first third of the novel, I looked back and what I’d put together and saw that some of the pieces didn’t fit as neatly as they ought to. I can’t obsess over those little pieces being wrong right now though; those are matters to address when I get to the end and can see the entire picture, the entire draft. Looking at it as a whole, I’ll be able to more clearly pull apart those pieces that don’t work, fix them, and reinsert them to make the entire story stronger. Maybe what I see now as little pieces that don’t work will actually come back together in the end. I put those pieces back in for a reason, didn’t I? (So I tell myself.)

One of the reasons I’m enjoying myself so much with this project is that absolutely I love puzzles, though I think I adore strategy games and logic puzzles more than I do straight up table-top puzzles like in my analogy. I adore solving them. I adore a puzzle that makes me think, that actually makes my brain feel as if it’s using more of its total potential. (I love it when my brain hurts after a complicated bit of thinking. I’m a nerd, shush.) Good puzzles spawn questions I think about in the shower, when cooking, when walking down the street; questions I ponder while staring into vacant space on the subway ride home (and which tend to garner me more than one “She’s crazy,” looks). Answering those questions, fitting the pieces together… that’s why I write. I get a rush from a plot’s pieces falling into place, at that little thing I hit on earlier in the novel coming back into play in a big way.

Writing a first draft is one kind of rush. It’s a new project high of anything goes and literary abandon, as the good people at NaNoWriMo call it. I love that feeling, absolutely. But once the novel is out in front of me, actually on the page in its messy first draft form, then begins the more interesting part. The pulling it apart and putting it back together for the second, or third iteration or more — that’s a rush of an entirely different nature. It doesn’t feel like writing a novel, to me, when I know the story so well. Thus my analogy: it feels like I’m simply putting all of the pieces of the story together to form the coherent image, the story I know waits at the end of all of that work.

Spending a day solving puzzles I’ve created for myself… yes, writing a novel is the best job ever.

Happy National Celiac Awareness Day!

Do you know what celiac disease is? You should! Do you know a celiac? Now you do — me!

Today is National Celiac Awareness Day, which was created for the purpose of getting the word out about celiac disease. It’s a disease that afflicts 1 in 133 people in the United States — statistics say you probably know someone else other than me! – in all sorts of ways, whether they know it or not. The symptoms can vary so widely, even doctors have difficulty diagnosing this disease. The treatment is simple: it’s dietary. Because celiacs can’t digest gluten, the best way to feel better is to eliminate gluten entirely. Such a simple treatment for a disease that can seriously wreck an affected person’s digestive system.

I was diagnosed with celiac disease in May 2009 and I’ve been gluten-free ever since. While I feel great, I’m not going to lie: it’s been hard. I loved beer and New York pizza crust and a huge bowl of authentic al dente homemade pasta. Loved. There’s no way around the fact that the gluten protein is what happens to be that which makes some foods good. (Alton Brown explains why good pizza crust requires gluten here — it’s around 3:00, but the whole episode is great.) Now, though, if I eat gluten in a large enough quantity, I’ll feel like I’ve eaten a bowling ball. It will sit in my middle making me feel all sorts of awful for days. A bite, yeah. I can handle a bite. But I’m an all-or-nothing kind of girl, so it’s hard.

But there is good news! In the year and a half since my diagnosis, I’ve found more and more products I can eat — and more and more people who know what the heck I am talking about when I say I can’t digest gluten. My local grocery, and the big ones I shop at regularly (FreshDirect, Whole Foods, Trader Joe’s) clearly mark and label everything. I’ve picked up some big name brands and found the words “gluten free” on their nutrition label. (Pick up a pack of Starbursts! Really!) Big brands are adding new gluten free products all the time. I found a brand of gluten free foods I’m completely obsessed with and finally, I feel like I can eat a sandwich again. I’ve discovered restaurants with gluten free menus or options. It’s also led me to re-discover the awesomeness of vegetables, fruits, and unusual grains in all of their glory. (Beets! Eggplant! Quinoa!) Still, grabbing an on-the-go gluten free lunch [for cheap] in New York is next to impossible, but hey, I can dream big. (Very big, maybe, but I’m an optimist!)

Part of what the different celiac disease foundations out there are trying do with today’s event is simple. The goal is to get the word out. Inform potential patients and doctors, inform teachers and parents — everyone. When I say I’m “gluten free,” most of the waiters at restaurants look at me like I’m crazy. Parents of kids I’ve chatted with know everything about allergies — peanuts, tree nuts, soy, dairy, et cetera — but celiac? What’s that?

So… tell someone about celiac disease. Share the Wikipedia love. Read this article. Spread the word! And thank you.

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