There exists a very fine line between love and obsession. When I find I love something, it usually becomes an obsession rather quickly. When I read a book I love, I must find more by the same author, I must discover if there’s a sequel out there or upcoming. When I see a movie I love, I have to see it again (and again), and probably own it, its soundtrack, and… you get the idea.
This week’s love-turned-obsession? Disney’s TANGLED. (What follows is not really about the movie’s plot, so those who haven’t seen it are safe from spoilers!)
I saw this in the theater almost two weeks ago with my husband and some friends. I’d been clamoring to see this since I read a review saying that the film featured music by Alan Menken — THE Alan Menken, of ’90s Disney movie-musical fame. By the time I was six or seven, I ranked Alan Menken up there with Mozart and Beethoven and Vivaldi (names I’d learned in music class) because what child in the ’90s did not have a life-altering reaction to “Under the Sea” or “Part of Your World”?
From the very opening line (Flynn: “This is the story of how I died.”) to the song of the end credits, I was… spellbound. Captivated. I sat there and I swear to all that is good I felt like I was a kid watching BEAUTY AND THE BEAST or THE LION KING or CINDERELLA or SLEEPING BEAUTY for the first time. No Disney film has done that for me since before MULAN.
I’ll give you some history. My mother put Disney videos on for me from the time I was capable of focusing my eyes on a television screen. The songs, the stories, and the characters were imprinted upon my consciousness at an early age. The Disney Princess Movie is a permanent part of my soul. The first stories I told myself as a kid (when not attempting to write another Cam Jansen or Encyclopedia Brown mystery) were all my own made-up princess stories, because none of the real fairy tales were… well, exciting enough. (After I saw FERN GULLY and THUMBELINA my stories, briefly, became fairy princess stories. Don’t judge me.) So obsessed was I with the Disney princess movie that in third grade, at age eight, I proclaimed before the entire class I wanted to be a Disney animator when I grew up. My drawings (pretty decent for an eight-year-old) were [mostly] of princesses and I knew that after I went to art school I’d totally be drawing the next Disney princess. And even years after I realized that animators aren’t the ones who make up the story and that I was more interested in telling the story than animating someone else’s, I still look at Disney movies and there’s this strange itch I can’t scratch. Like, in another life, if the profession I’d chosen when I was eight was the one I was involved in today, maybe I’d be working on a movie like TANGLED even now. It’s almost like a kinship. We grew up together, Disney movies and I, and we share a special bond.
(Which makes me imagine me and my friend Disney Princess Movie going to lunch together, because even today I anthropomorphize everything thanks to, probably, Disney. I digress.)
So when I left the theater having seen TANGLED, I was in knots. (HA!) I wanted to see it again! I had to download the soundtrack! (When that love turns into obsession I don’t do thinks by halves.) But a couple of blocks away from the theater, TANGLED’s shortcomings started poking me… but I realized they weren’t the movie’s shortcomings at all. The poking, prodding thoughts I was having had nothing directly to do with the movie I saw but everything to do with the necessary form of the Disney princess movie and its parent, the fairy tale. The story. The tropes. I started asking questions about them when I read the original Grimm and Anderson and even Lang, which led me to studying this stuff in college, in part: tropes and themes and histories of stories like this, in medieval and early modern literature, in classic fairy tales. The old crone and the witch, the step-mother versus the mother, the innocent naif and the handsome swashbuckler.
I looked at TANGLED under this critical lens and thought, It’s still a fairy tale. Though this film had some of the best nuance and backstory of any Disney princess movie, it was still a very basic fairy tale. But what was it about Disney princess movies, I wondered, that got me to start writing my own stories? Imagining the characters and the depth and the reality behind that very basic fairy tale. THE LITTLE MERMAID hardly characterizes Eric outside of his being a handsome prince; the most exciting part of SLEEPING BEAUTY is Prince Philip’s wild ride to slay Maleficent, which relies on no involvement from the film’s titular princess. (And of course the fairies give him the sword and the shield!) I had to write my own stories — set in my own worlds, with my own crazy casts of characters — because I needed to tell stories that felt as wonderful as my favorite Disney movies but as real as my own experiences. I wasn’t a princess. I was a complicated contradiction of a child. I needed to write a story that reflected me.
So two weeks ago I realized all over again: as swoon-worthy as TANGLED was, as absolutely awesome, active, and wonderful its princess was (as Meg Cabot so beautifully points out here), it wasn’t enough for me. No Disney movie has ever been “enough” for me. Because even as a kid I wanted more. More complexity, backstory, layers, and history. Though TANGLED’s character backstories and psychologies were pretty deep stuff for a Disney film, they weren’t equivalent to the depth to be found in say, a great middle grade or YA novel. The reason why I decided when I was twelve that I needed to write novels was due in direct part to my obsession with providing my characters with the depth, backstories, and psychological growth I was missing in my favorite Disney films, because as a medium and a format they’re not exactly optimal for providing that. (And the G or PG rating? I wanted to get a little more intense with my worlds and Disney movies usually can’t do that and have the same wide-ranging appeal.)
Disney movies were the first stories I ever really started analyzing, and that analysis was what led me to realizing the important role of the writer in the genesis of a story (of course, you say, but this was revelatory for Erin the eight-year-old!). That led me to wondering what makes a good writer, a good story teller, and started me on the path that led to me taking writing course after writing course, attempting my first drawer novels, then studying writing (and critical analysis!) in college, and now to writing for real. By the transitive property, Disney movies are what led me to my chosen career. (That and Star Wars, but that’s an obsession worthy of another post.)
So in a really round-about way, seeing TANGLED reaffirmed my passion for (and obsession with) writing young adult novels.
Do you share my Disney princess movie obsession? What experience have you had with Disney movies?
